composure... breathe in breathe out

I'm at work right now. I probably don't need to be blogging, but I need a quick break.

I am just seriously irritated with college. I like learning, I've had some amazing teachers, and my grades are good. But what really gets under my skin is watching people get through in exactly 4 years that don't have any responsibility. People with money get scholarships that they don't need and are praised for doing so well in school? Is this a joke? I mean, they get a scholarship because they have every opportunity to do well - nice and encouraging parents, money for a good education... need I go on? Then what? Four years is spent in school with their only responsibility being school. They might work if they want some extra disposable income on top of the lump sum thrown at them every month by their parents. Basically, this facade of college students that do well having worked "so hard" when they have everything in the free world handed to them besides their grades is almost always completely ridiculous. I'm sooooo tired of it I could scream. I'm almost in tears just thinking about the miniscule amount of free time I have had since my 2nd year of school, especially my 3rd. I have no scholarship, no grants, just loans, yet I have a 3.8 GPA. Figure that one out. My parents' heads are in the clouds and don't help a lick. God blessed me with a husband, but we can't even enjoy being married. We're trying to finish school and are working almost full time and balancing that will full time work schedules.

It's a double-edged sword. It's not that I don't think it's probably better this way. I'm more mature and capable of taking care of myself and a family. But sometimes it'd be nice to have it a little bit easier, and really what I'm saying is shut-up about all the spoiled university students. They really have a lot of time to goof off so they're not working as hard as you think. Trust me.

the end.