Today I started a study of Zechariah. I don't know much at all about the book besides that it is one I haven't read and it is part of the living word of God and thus there is something to be learned from it.
It is powerful to think that there is a reason that I am sitting right now on our couch and just read chapter 1 of Zechariah. God is so in control that He doesn't miss a minute detail. Wow. Now I'll return to the text and try to dig out some deeper meaning.
The first thing that the Lord says to Zechariah is "Return to me... and I will return to you".
(v. 3) I have chill bumps. It's like He's speaking to me through these words that were written before Christ! How powerful... God loves us so deeply it is mind-blowing.
Later on the angel spoke to Zechariah and said "Proclaim this word: this is what the Lord Almighty says: 'I am very jealous for Jerusalem and Zion, but I am very angry with the nations that feel secure. I was only a little angry, but they added to the calamity'." (v. 14-15)
God is righteously jealous for his people and has stored anger for those that are secure without him. I'm not sure why he says "I was only a little angry, but they added to the calamity", but that line is powerful. It makes me think of the state of our nation, but it gives me hope.
I'm at work right now. I probably don't need to be blogging, but I need a quick break.
I am just seriously irritated with college. I like learning, I've had some amazing teachers, and my grades are good. But what really gets under my skin is watching people get through in exactly 4 years that don't have any responsibility. People with money get scholarships that they don't need and are praised for doing so well in school? Is this a joke? I mean, they get a scholarship because they have every opportunity to do well - nice and encouraging parents, money for a good education... need I go on? Then what? Four years is spent in school with their only responsibility being school. They might work if they want some extra disposable income on top of the lump sum thrown at them every month by their parents. Basically, this facade of college students that do well having worked "so hard" when they have everything in the free world handed to them besides their grades is almost always completely ridiculous. I'm sooooo tired of it I could scream. I'm almost in tears just thinking about the miniscule amount of free time I have had since my 2nd year of school, especially my 3rd. I have no scholarship, no grants, just loans, yet I have a 3.8 GPA. Figure that one out. My parents' heads are in the clouds and don't help a lick. God blessed me with a husband, but we can't even enjoy being married. We're trying to finish school and are working almost full time and balancing that will full time work schedules.
It's a double-edged sword. It's not that I don't think it's probably better this way. I'm more mature and capable of taking care of myself and a family. But sometimes it'd be nice to have it a little bit easier, and really what I'm saying is shut-up about all the spoiled university students. They really have a lot of time to goof off so they're not working as hard as you think. Trust me.
i'm witty and pseudo-charming, when i "want" to be. i'm also down a lot and contemplate life more than i live it. i love a boy named randall. i'm a cynic and and a christian, and somehow it works. i dedicated my life to God 2 years ago, and intend on living for Him forever despite my struggles with even wanting to live often times. i like listening to my music and finding new music. i also love random clothing items and hugs. there's not much to know but so much to find out about me.